the reason it has become like this is rather simple, Im not just a lazy but also a sometimes hopeless person. Its like, I think like this:
" I dont know what to answer this person. But I cant answer that person even if I know what to say cause what if the guy I dont know what to reply to finds out and wonders what the hell is keeping me so long?". But now Im tried of this. Im gonna answer these comments (some of them doesnt even need to be answered just deleted). I can not promis I will succed though, but I´ll really try. if it so will take all day.
also, I have a question, a bit related to this yet not much. Do you guys ever like wish so hard that you could just wake up one morning feeling like you dont have one single thing planned today?. And even if there are things you could just do tomorrow instead its not the same thing because there are always things you have to do. ALWAYS. I just wanna wake up one saturday morning and feel like today I am completly free to do whatever I wish.
do you ever wish that as well? :/
all of this reminds me of a episode from spongebob where Squidward goes:
- Why do something today that you can put off until tomorrow?
and then mr crab says:
- what is it today if not yesterday's tomorrow
and its funny how that is like a summary of my whole life. Squidward being me and Crab being like a little voice of visdom which I constantly succeeds to completly ignore.
also, Im lonley. I dont get why, I have alot of friends and a awesome family. yet im really lonley